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Being Bipolar: Was mania my super power?
Mania was my super power. This is my normal, and I realized I’m not able to do as much like this. I feel mediocre. I told this to Ryan and he said , “Go ahead, stop taking your meds” and it made me realize the cons of stopping my bipolar medication, outweighs the pros I mean, I can still create content, not just as fast, as efficient, or better than when I was manic. Back when I wasnt taking my medication, nor was I aware…
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Personal Musings: Gorgeous gorgeous girls, know when to take a break
๐ฎ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐.~ Story Time & Life Updates ~ I needed one badly. Imagine, creating content day in and day out for over 15 years! Starting with Kikaysikat. I felt lost, pressured, and overwhelmed. When I first began in 2009, it started as a hobby out of passion from writing. I had a 9-5 day job in IT, and wanted to continue working on my creativity. I quit my dayjob come 2015 to go fulltime with my blogs, but…
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REVIEW AND SWATCHES: EB Pillow Pop Cream Blush (and my procrastination)
I have this huge ass backlog of products to swatch and review, from both seeded and those I bought from my own pocket. Having a day job is ~exhausting~ but you have to be grateful for things. I shouldn’t blame my work. I’m a procrastinator, that’s it. I’d rather binge a book or binge a series or a movie than write on my blog (which I honestly like doing). I just procrastinate. Why? Because if I couldn’t do it as perfectly as it is on…
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Why am I not writing (not even reading!)
Hooray for another personal musing for today’s post. It’s been a while. I’m not sure if it’s the lack of caffeine in my bloodstreams or lack of inspiration, – definitely not lack of time or energy; but I haven’t beenย writing on any of my blogs for the past few months. Why? Is it my medication???? (Quitiapene) Whenever I see content creators post something really nice, or relevant across my feed I get a bit envious thinking “I could do that”, but I dont. Is it…
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What about tomorrow?
Actually medyo #notetoself ko din kasi nagkakaroon nanaman ako ng “anxieties for the future”. Paano next year may income pa ba ko? Paano sa next five? Then I realized.. these are the same intrusive thoughts I had 10, 5, 3 years ago. 10 years ago I quit my office job as an IT professional to pursue my passion as a blogger/writer. Sobrang laking risk and insecurity sa income.. pero si Lord na lang talaga and may mga dumarating na project at campaigns Aaminin ko dahil sa Tiktok…
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My Christmas Gifts to Self (2022 edition)
This will be hopefully the first out of many. It could be material gifts like this one, or other ones like in action, in travel, or in self-care. Last year (wow 2023 na) I decided to buy the things I always wanted to get for myself but couldn’t do so before because of a lack of finances. Don’t worry though! I made sure this was in my “splurge” section of my budget, and always keep my savings intact!ย A small part of myself is also…
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Being Bipolar: I no longer work in my bedroom (and tips to help you sleep)
The past few weeks have been challenging for me. I haven’t slept straight, or even have a full night’s sleep. There are even instances where I had zero sleep, consecutively for three days.ย Do you know how it feels when, you lie down at 9 PM, close your eyes by 10 PM, and then after “feeling you’re not sleeping at all” check the time and holy fuck it’s already 3 AM? Your body’s tired but your mind is restless. That has been my scenario for…
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Personal Musings: On motherhood and motivation
Geof approached me one morning and I was surprised by his question: Mom, how do you stay motivated? It wasn’t his usual curiosities like why are lemons sour, or what cats are allergic to. I looked at my son closely and realized he wasn’t a baby anymore *sobs*. He’s nearing his teen years and growing up. I’m grateful that he considers my opinion still valuable. I asked him back: Motivated to do what? Well, Geof continued, you always exercise, you work hard, and you still…
